It was five years ago today that you left this earthly abode to set your soul free.  The pain you suffered is gone but the void you left will never be forgotten.

You are remembered each and every day.  Sometimes it is a word or maybe a song but often it is just that feeling that you are missing.  The grief remains even though the tears aren't as often but when they fall, they fall silently as I sit alone wondering why you were taken so soon and so quickly from my loving arms.

I long to hear your voice or to feel your touch and when I look at the pictures they are just memories now.    We used to talk that our lives had crossed since our youth and that it was meant to be that we would be soul mates.  We had many years together and now a part of me is gone.  I look up to the heavens and search for a star.  We used to say our stars were up there close together but now I only see one.  I keep searching hoping to see a glimmer next to a bright star as a sign that you are there waiting for me to join you so we can shine brightly in the night sky to show everyone we are together again.

One day there will be two stars but for now I only look for one that glitters and winks and lets me know that you are there watching over me and our family.   Until that time I can only hold on to the memories and try to smile through my tears as I look out the window hoping to see you coming to me or saying something knowing you are not here to hear me.  The pain in my heart will never go away and can only be mended when we are together again.

In loving memory of my soul mate, Harold.